Since I began my journey to love and take care of myself, I’ve become a lot more spontaneous. I no longer feel the need to plan every minute of my day ahead of time. Instead, I just gauge what I want and need in the moment and go with that. Life is so much more exuberant when you live in the present. I can better appreciate each moment of my life because I’m more fully experiencing it.
One of my recent acts of spontaneity includes exiting off the turnpike about 50 miles too soon to drive through my college campus and take the scenic route home. Sure, this may not seem like a big deal, but it was really remarkable to me. I saw the exit to my college, and thought about how nice it would be to drive through campus. Then I simply decided if that’s what I wanted, that’s what I would do!
Another act of spontaneity involves Darren. Him and his friends are always doing crazy things. A few days ago they decided to drive three hours to pick up his friend’s girlfriend. Since my house was on the way, he asked me to go along. It was already 10pm, and they wouldn’t get to my house until 11pm. I said yes anyways because it sounded fun. I didn’t get home until 3am. I was a sleepy girl the next day, but it was totally worth it. I’m glad I acted spontaneously.
Now, onto grilled peanut butter and jelly. Everyone I tell make this sandwich for is a complete skeptic until they take that first crunchy, gooey bite. Then, they are a total convert. Just trust me on this one. Peanut butter and jelly is good. Grilled peanut butter and jelly is fabulous.
Grilled Peanut Butter and Jelly
2 slices of bread
peanut butter
jelly
butter/margarine
Place skillet over high heat. Place peanut butter and jelly inside the sandwich. Coat the outside of the sandwich with butter or margarine. Grill sandwich in the skillet until each side is golden, brown.
Also, if you want to be extra fancy, after coating the outside of the sandwich with butter/margarine, you can coat the outside with a cinnamon and sugar mixture, then grill.
XOXO,
Jamie
Road trip…successful! Fried PB&J are my favorite. Thank you for introducing me to something so righteous. I can never cut the sandwich in half without all the peanut butter and jelly going everywhere. How do you do it so perfectly. haha
Hi
I’m still far behind you in the road to recovery from eating disorder and all the emotional craze, and I still find the need to plan my day critically, find it difficult to do things spontaneously, let alone go out at night like that. I really wish I could too!!
I just bought myself new jars of these yesterday, so this must be a sign that I must try these out myself too 
Anyway, the peanut butter and jelly grill looks soooo good
Trust me Asuma, if you keep at it, things get better. There are a lot of good books out there that really helped me out. Have you ever read Women, Food, and God by Geneen Roth? I’ve read pretty much everything by Geneen Roth. Her books really helped me through recovery. Recovery is a slow, hard process, but it’s doable, and life after your eating disorder is sooooo worth it.
Thanks, I read your other response in your post about your favourite books and taco rolls. It also gives me the push I need on my back, to read your blogs and see how you dealt with your ED. Makes me realise how much I want myself back, how much I want to love myself again. Thank you so much for caring to reply