First of all, I’d like to say thanks for all your honest comments on my last post. However, I still don’t know what I am going to write about for my personal statement. I have a draft that centers on how my eating disorder has helped me grow to be a stronger more capable person than I would have been otherwise and how it showed me what a “good” doctor really is. But, I’m still not sure if writing about my eating disorder is a risk I want to take. I’m just not sure…
Anyways, I wanted to talk about how I started loving running.
Yes I used to hate running. It was always such punishment for me to run. In high school, we would run a mile to warm-up before cheerleading. I would always feel like dying about 100 meters into the run. Well all that is changing…
I started running because I finally felt that I was in a place where I could workout in a “healthy” mindset. By “healthy” mindset, I mean that I work out to make my body and mind feel good (and as a bonus, it makes me sleep really good!), not to burn calories or lose weight. As I’ve spoken about before, when I was recovering from my eating disorder I avoided all formal exercise because it was such a trigger.
I chose running, because you don’t need to go to the gym. You just need to walk out the door and go! When I first started running, I was beyond terrible. I could run about half a mile before being too tired to go any further. Some of this was probably a result of my decreased muscle mass and overall fitness from my anorexia. Also though, I’ve just never been very good at running. I realized that the reason I’ve always hated running is that in the past I exerted myself to the point of near death<—okay, maybe exaggerating a little. At cheerleading practice in high school, I would try to keep up with girls who run track. Obviously I couldn’t keep that pace without having ever trained!
So from my half mile, I’ve worked up to being able to run a comfortable, albeit slow, 5k. My dream/goal is to run a half-marathon. I’m going to keep running because it makes me feel good, and I love working towards goals.
So moral of the story? Move your body in whatever way you find enjoyable, and go as slow as you need to. Also, workout to improve your bodily and mental health. Don’t focus on losing weight! That will come secondarily if you have extra weight to lose.