When I started this blog it was a way for me to experiment with food, to learn to love myself, and to really just grapple with my eating disorder issues.
Thankfully, I no longer feel that this is the purpose of CollegeGirlCooking.
I’m writing this post to address the fact that I have changed and grown so much in the past year, and likewise, my blog has changed and grown as well. I will continue to write about my eating disorder experiences, advocate for the destigmatization of mental illness, and support those of you who are still on your journey to recovery.
However, I want to make it explicit that I now consider CollegeGirlCooking to be a healthy living blog.
I’ve recently been met with some disapproval by some of my more recent posts describing the foods I eat or my recent return to regular exercise. Some people believe that no one ever truly recovers from an eating disorder. Along with this belief comes the opinion that people with histories of eating disorders cannot actually embrace a healthy lifestyle because any approach towards “health” is necessarily fueled by restrictive/obsessive habits or is a manifestation of the eating disorder itself.
I can only speak from my own personal experience. When I was recovering and when I first considered myself recovered, I completely avoided exercise. I wasn’t in the mindset to approach it healthfully, meaning that I couldn’t exercise without using it as a tool to lose weight or burn calories. Furthermore, in the beginning, I had to completely disregard the nutritional content of my food and just eat.
Now though, I am able to approach “healthy living” with an open, positive, and flexible mindset. Yes I eat yogurt, oatmeal, cottage cheese, apples, grilled chicken, and other so called “healthy” foods, but that is because I like them! In addition to these “healthy” foods I eat my fair share of “unhealthy” foods<—-Most notably, ice cream and Biscoff Spread. Oh how I love you Biscoff Spread!
Furthermore, I am able to exercise purely because it makes me feel good. I love the endorphins and I love devoting a chunk of time completely to myself.
Healthy living to me is not about food or exercise. It’s about fully embracing your life and loving yourself fiercely. I believe I am doing just that.
(Darren and I after our first, and only, 5k!).
Also, I registered for a half-marathon in August. WHOA!