So, as you may or may not know, this past week was eating disorders awareness week. I knew I wanted to say something to raise awareness, but I wasn’t really sure what….until I remembered a photograph my sister, Taylor, shot of me. Side note: My sister is a great photographer, and she writes a super inspiring blog! Check her work out here!
Taylor took this picture of me about 5 months ago. My hair was so short!
This picture represents my struggle with food. The colors are stark. The only things in the picture are me and an apple. The lack of other items portrays what an eating disorder really feels like. It is complete obsession with food or a lack thereof. However, eating disorders aren’t really about the food or the weight. The focus on food and weight is merely a symptom of a deeper internal struggle. In this photograph, I am curled up like a child in the fetal position. This pose is reflective of the lack of control I felt in my life and my desire to remain a child.
Besides the fact that I think this picture is representative of my eating disorder, it also shows my body. Unlike magazine cover girls, I have tan lines and fleshy bits. But that doesn’t make me any less beautiful. My body is not an object. It is much more than that in that it enables me to do the things I love every day. I can run, and jump, and sing, (and sit through boring lectures taking notes until my hand is numb), all thanks to my body. And for all those things, I am thankful.
Love yourself, love your body, and love the people around you.