Good evening lovelies! I’m starting a new series on the blog entitled “What I’ve Learned.” I plan to do a few posts about running, college life, and anything else I think of that I feel qualified to write about!!
Before I get into the meat of this post, I want to talk about something that’s been on my mind lately. As you’ve all noticed, I haven’t been posting very frequently…at all. I’ve said it numerous times before, but second semester of my junior year has been insane. Usually, when I find (or make) time for myself, I just want to veg out and watch one of my favorite television shows. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE to blog. I love to really reflect on my experiences and share them, and blogging allows me to do that! However, I’ve been feeling a bit guilty about my lack of posting…
I thought about quitting the blog altogether because it didn’t seem fair for me to only post once a week or once every two weeks. However, I’ve come to the conclusion that I WILL keep blogging. Sometimes I just feel the urge to write. Just like with food, I need to listen to my body. I will blog when inspiration strikes or when I need an outlet. I am not going to force myself to blog though because I CANNOT handle anymore obligations at the moment.
Anyways, I just wanted to inform you all of that. I’m still here Just not as frequently as I have been!
Now, onto the good stuff!
Yesterday was my long run day, and I totally beasted 5 miles! Let me rephrase that, I physically beasted 5 miles. Mentally, I was struggling.
Backtrack to Sunday morning. I wake up and begin getting around for my 5 mile run. All the while I’m rationalizing in my head why I should run 4 miles instead of the 5 I had planned. For an entire 20 minutes the only thought going through my head was “I should do a 4 mile run. 4 miles will be great.” Over, and over, and over again…
Until I finally said to myself, “SHUTUP!”
Then my head was quiet.
And I asked myself, “Why shouldn’t I run 5 miles? I’ve successfully ran 4 miles on numerous occasions. This 5 mile run is part of my half-marathon training. I need to keep increasing mileage (albeit, slowly). SO WHY ARE YOU SO ADAMANT ON RUNNING 4 MILES INSTEAD OF 5?”
Then the realization hit me: I didn’t want to plan on 5 miles because I was scared of failure. I was scared I might not complete my planned workout.
So, I made a mental list of all the reasons I should plan for a 5 mile workout:
1. If I feel too tired before 5 miles is over, I can always stop.
2. I can take walking breaks whenever I am tired.
3. Even if I quit at 2 miles, I DID NOT FAIL. I (and you!) should be proud of ANY workout whether it is walking a block or running a marathon! We are challenging and bettering ourselves!
And with my new mindset, I set out to complete 5 miles. And I conquered it! Sure it was a slow 5 miles (12:00 mile pace), but I felt great at the end!
Take note: Do not be afraid to set goals out of fear of failure! At worst you can learn from your experience, pick yourself up, and try again.
Have a fantastic week my dears.